So, as far as I can figure, there are two different kinds of people. There are the dreamers and then there are the doers. I wanna be a doer! I struggle with this though. I'm one of those people that pin a million projects on pinterest, and am intent on doing them, but then it takes forever to actually do it!
Some people have really honed in on their creative side, and produce beautiful things. I think a lot of us have the capability to develop a creative side. I used to LOVE drawing and poetry when I was a teenager. Somehow over time, I focused on other things and lost my creativity.
Thank goodness for the internet and for bloggers! Seeing all the wonderful, beautiful, ingenious ideas and projects that others have produced is so inspiring! Speaking of bloggers, my favorite all time blog for home projects and organizing is IHEARTORGANIZING! Her name is Jen, and she is incredible! This girl never stops. She just keeps going and going like the energizer bunny! But she also makes time for family as well. I want to be just like her when I grow up. Oh wait, I AM all grown up! Anyways, I love reading her blog because she has the greatest style and ideas. Her house is perfection...in my eyes. It matches my style perfectly. And not only that...but she is a DOER. She doesn't JUST sit back and dream, she actually DOES!
I find myself dreaming a lot! I LOVE to make lists, and I love to plan. But when it comes to doing...not so much! Especially when it is something new. I feel intimidated sometimes. Scared that maybe I'll screw up or waste money because I'll ruin it.
But when I read about people that DO, I get inspired to be a DOER. I've realized that DOER's make time, even if it means sacrificing other things (not family of course). During the day, my boys go down for a nap. I look forward to this time every day. Before, the norm was to plop my butt down and catch up on blogs or pretend shop (I hope I'm not the only crazy that does this, you know, put hundreds and hundreds of dollars worth of items in your online shopping cart but never buy it), or take a nap because I am too tired to do anything else. But as of late, I have realized that this cannot happen anymore. Having a third child has been a real game changer for me. I realize that there are NOT enough hours in the day to get everything done, let alone, enough time for me to spend the WHOLE time during my boys' naps, to surf the web or to sleep. So glad I FINALLY figured this out and was able to give up my selfish ways...a little. Now, I alternate between relaxing, cleaning, and other things on my to do list. Some days, I will take the whole nap time to myself. Like right now. I am writing this during nap time. Other days, I won't rest at all and I will just keep going and going. And other days I'll do a little of both.
I have to admit, as hard as it was to accept this realization of giving up part of my "quiet time", I have been A LOT happier. I feel happy inside because I am accomplishing the things that are always running through my mind and annoying me. I feel happy because I worked hard. There is something to be said about WORK. Over the last few years I have strengthened my values and beliefs in working hard. I want my children to learn it too. I think if I am able to teach my children the value of hard work, that it will save them a lot of trouble later on in their lives.
So, it's decided. I'm going to be a DOER. It will take me and my stubborn self some time...but I know over time, I will only get better if I practice doing and not only dreaming.